But we know it's just a lie.
I'm talking food people. We have been out of food for about a week at my house yet somehow I manage to find some sustenance. I have found that the cabinets are much deeper than they appear; more food is readily available than I ever would have imagined. (what?)
I received a free sandwich yesterday when I went to yellow sub and the cash register was broken. I gave the girl a nice big tip. I wasn't too generous though, I mean, it was my rightfully lucky free sandwich. So I put a dollar in the jar. Hahaha. I also made 25 dollars from a party thrown at my house saturday night. I threw down 20 for the keg and handles and received 45 back, thus making my net profit 25 dollars. So essentially what it comes down to is people payed me to party this weekend.
So I should get going because I have a Diff. Eq. test tomorrow that I still need to study for. I really just wrote this blog so my latest entry wouldn't be an über emo one. Things really haven't been that bad this semester, I just seem to gravitate more towards my blog when I am depressed. It all makes sense, but the reason I'm blogging tonight is because I had a KU friend ask me the other day, "Are you doing alright?", and I looked at him like he was an idiot, but he explained that he had read my blog, so I divulged to him what I am divulging to you right now about my blogging habits.
Ok bye.
While sailing on the open seas, the winds were strong after recently departing from land. Excitement abounded, the winds were strong, and the crew was eager to set out to wherever we decided to go.
Now though the winds have died down, we have settled in, and the excitement has waned to a large degree. We are can't go anywhere, but we want to.
I have officially reached the doldroms of college. I am partially to blame for this, having decided to live in a house this year as opposed to the dorms; however, I believe that this is a point everyone must reach sometime. I have essentially stopped meeting new people, and any goal I am working for is so far in the future that I can not see to see it right now.
I'm not saying that I haven't had fun in these past few weeks--it's just that the fun has been so fleeting since there has been nothing really to look forward to. It seems the only thing that gives me any lasting satisfaction right now is school. I just took my first exam of the semester on friday and was very happy to believe that I had done exceptionally on it.
Now as I settle into my box, I find it very uncomfortable and I find that the relationships I have with most of the people I know are going nowhere they haven't been before and it's time to move on and stop wasting time driving down dead ends.
So I guess that's what I have to do. I need not to hang out with certain people because that's just what I do. I need to make a new connections and be excited about life once again. I need to stop going to the same parties every week. Gawd, if I didn't have a curriculum I had to follow it would be so easy just to get up and leave. How is it that at a college with 25,000 undergraduates, it can seem smaller than high school?
Anyway, reading On The Road right now isn't helping me to be satisfied with where I am right now, but it certainly isn't the root cause of this dissatisfaction. I need to break the curse of being "that guy" and become once again "the new guy".
Anyway, passing thoughts, hope you all are making new connections and branching out like a river delta. Lata.